losing control over your life
life has betrayed me once again. I'm not sure I could keep up with this. Not even sure if anything is going to change sooner or later. My mom once told me that she had a strong feeling that I won't have anything I wanted in this world. So far, she's right. why would I even try? I need someone to give me a way to believe that there's something good waiting me in this world. I won't go on explaining what the fuck is going on in my life, but I'll state breifly that I'm on the brink of destruction. I'm about to fall without coming back. Judgement is the only thing that's breaking my brains into pieces. Things in my life are happening so fast that I totally feel like I totally lost control over my life. Not because of fate and stuff, but because of things I've done a long time ago and are haunting me right now.
How could I help myself? I really need help.
my miserable life.